Monday, December 5, 2011

Toys For Tots

I have had an obsession with motorcycles since I was little. This is no surprise since I am a gigantic adrenaline junkie. So when I had the chance this weekend, to experience something truly amazing I could not pass it up. My boyfriend and I went to the Chicagoland  Toys for Tots Motorcycle Parade. We put lights on his 600CC FZ6, and tied Santa hats to our helmets. With toys packed into a backpack that was strapped on my back we made the ride down Western.

As we began our journey there was no shortage of people waving and cheering us on. It was truly amazing and was not something that I had expected. What really touched my heart was the children. Kids of all ages all wrapped up in winter coats, scarves, and gloves, smiling ear to ear and waving like it was Christmas for them. I wasn't driving so I had the opportunity to wave at every child that I passed. It was awesome to see their excitement as they turned to their parents and said: "Mommy she waved at me!!" 



It is amazing how something so simple can completely change a child's day. I was doing something that day that I would have done anyways. This was an amazing cause and I fully support the idea that every child should get something for Christmas.

The best part of the entire ride was towards the end. We were stopped about a mile away on a hill getting close to the toy drop-off zone. A little girl was holding a box of "Cooties" and smiling. As her mom nudged her forward, telling her that it was safe and she could go ahead she slowly walked into the street. She shyly walked up to the man two bikes in front of us with a gigantic smile on her face. She handed the man the game then ran back to her mom. "I did it, mommy!!" The little girl said as she embraced her mother. Seeing how happy the girl was that she could be a part of the event gave me hope. Children can make a difference and there is hope for the future. 



The problem is not that children don't want to help. The problem is that most parents won't let their children help. Motorcycles are dangerous and they do no good. While motorcycles are dangerous with the proper gear and a specific cause they can do great good. 


I love the feeling of being on the back of the bike. It's so much fun and nothing can top the feeling that I got this weekend. 

Friday, November 11, 2011

My Epic Wish

Today is November 11th, 2011. I'm a huge fan of wishes at 11:11. So, naturally, this wish (some may call it stupid) meant a lot to me. I set an alarm on my phone because this is not something that I wanted to miss. Now, I can't tell you my wish, but I can tell you two things: One that it was epic and something that I've been wishing and praying for for along time, and two: it has nothing to do with Disney (shocking I know!!)!!
The idea of wishing and having dreams is extremely important to me. In a way it keeps the child in me alive. It gives me hope. Wishing gives me a break from the busyness of life and gives me one minute to revert back to my childhood. It also gives me a short time to think about the things that I actually want. I'm not talking about physical things like purses, or trips to Walt Disney World. I'm talking about the things you can't buy like love, friendship, and a good sense of humor. This is one of the reasons why I wish upon a star, make wishes at 11:11, and still believe in the magic of Disney. :D

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Nobody's Cryin'

So when I should have been studying my little heart away for my STATs 100 test I was having a panic attack and listening to Pandora. My eyes were red and puffy because I was freaking out and because of all the other massive things that I had to get finished today. Then all of a sudden on of my favorite artists popped up in my song profile. It was a slight relief through all my sniffles and sobs to hear Sutton Foster's astonishing (if you get the joke there tell me and I will seriously give you a prize) voice. The song Nobody's Cryin' began to play and I started to slightly calm down.

He jumps in a taxi
Headed for the sky
He's off to slay some demon dragon fly
He looks at me for that long last time
Turns away again, and I wave good bye

In an envelope inside his coat
Is the chain I wore around my throat
Along with a note I wrote
That says I love you but I dont
Even though I

(Chorus)
Darling, I wish you well
On your way to the wishing well
Swinging off on those gates of hell
But I can tell how long your trying
I just have this secret hope
Sometimes all you do is cope
But somewhere on the steepest slope
is an endless rope
and nobody's crying

Well a long night turns into
a couple of long years
and we walking around with this trail of tears
and the very loud voices of my own fears
are ringing and ringing in my ears

Who says that love is long gone
every move I make is all wrong
Says you never gave a damn for me
or anything or anyone


(chorus)
Darling, I wish you well
On your way to the wishing well
Swinging off on those gates of hell
But I can tell how long your trying
I just have this secret hope
Sometimes all you do is cope
But somewhere on the steepest slope
is an endless rope
and nobody's crying

May you dream you are dreamin in a warm soft bed
maye the voices inside that fill you with dred
make the sounds of thousands of angels instaid
tonight when you might be away in your head

(chorus)
I wish you well
on your way to the wishing well
swinging off of those gates of hell
but i can tell how hard your trying
I just have this secret hope
sometimes all we do is cope
but somewhere on the steepest slope
theres and endless rope
and nobody's crying
nobody's crying
nobody's crying


When the song was finished the highlighted part continued to play in my mind. These words spoke exactly what I was feeling at that moment in time. I played the song over and over again and I, once again, started to think. I am not the only one going through this. What I am thinking about myself is by no means the truth. Everything that I am doing is not wrong. I am not a screw-up no matter how many people tell me that I am. Love is never gone. Just because I choose not to date someone anymore does not mean all hope is lost. Love will come around when it is least expected. And maybe he didn't give a damn for me, maybe he did, the only one who knows is him. The only one that can tell me exactly what happened is him. But I do believe at one point people do have to give a damn about someone somewhere. Life is very depressing and lonely when lived alone. I believe as human beings we are all meant to be social, to make friends, to experience loss and to grow from what has happened.

  & nobody's cryin'